... And then it all seems right
It's funny how things all fall into place when you least expect it. One minute you are discontented with just about everything in your life, and then you wake up one morning and find that all of the anguish you were feeling is gone, and things have a very real potential to go your way.
So much has been going on that its almost hard to know where to start. I guess I'll start with the biggest news.
ChemBabe has a new job! A wonderful new job with a company that has as much spunk as I do. I'm still in the environmental field, but instead of spending my days fighting with an instrument, I'm now an assistant to the QA director, with the idea that I'm in training to one day fill his shoes. This is an awsome move for me, in terms of career development. The data validation and interal audits that are part of my job description along with exposure to client and certification audits will put me in the perfect position to one day dip my feet in the consulting pool, and perhaps even land my own consulting firm. That, of course, is a long way off, but i'm definately on my way. While I'm not involved with daily operations in the laboratory, I still am able to keep involved in the laboratory from a QA perspective, and in that way, I'll be able to learn about all of the different testing techniques performed on site. In case it isn't perfectly clear, I am *very* excited about this move.
On the motherhood front, I sent my baby to jr. high this week, and I'm proud to admit that not one tear was shead... the lump in my throat was there, but no tears :) I'm super proud of that little girl, who's growing up so fast. I'm excited about the new school, I can see her being challenged already, and since she's taking pre-algebra, I know I'm going to get to brush up on my tutoring skills.
I am proud to say that I am quite contently single at the moment. I came to a realization a few weeks ago that gave me real perspective on the issue of relationships. Basically, I realized that I am quite satisfied not having a man in my life. There are of course disadvantages to not having someone to call when you could use a little help *like the flat tire I woke up to on Wed* - but even taking care of that little issue on my own was amazingly liberating. And since there is no one around to assume that I need to be taken care of, I don't find myself in situations where I want to be taken care of.
Having taken time to think about being single, and learn who I really am, I've also realized that I don't *need* a man in my life. I have, however, contemplated on the fact that it would be nice to have someone to talk to on a regular basis, just about stuff. Someone who would occasionally hug the heck outta me and tell me that i'm pretty awsome. Someone I can connect with on a level that few people take the time to get to. So I wait, not in search, but open to the idea that one day I might meet someone who does that for me.*
So, that's where I'm at right now... I'm in a mode of forward thinking. Not much thought of the past, except to think about how far i've come in the last 18 months.
*I have to note here, I smiled as I wrote that last line. I smiled not only with hope, but with the realization that it could happen tomorrow, or five years from now, and I would be content either way.
So much has been going on that its almost hard to know where to start. I guess I'll start with the biggest news.
ChemBabe has a new job! A wonderful new job with a company that has as much spunk as I do. I'm still in the environmental field, but instead of spending my days fighting with an instrument, I'm now an assistant to the QA director, with the idea that I'm in training to one day fill his shoes. This is an awsome move for me, in terms of career development. The data validation and interal audits that are part of my job description along with exposure to client and certification audits will put me in the perfect position to one day dip my feet in the consulting pool, and perhaps even land my own consulting firm. That, of course, is a long way off, but i'm definately on my way. While I'm not involved with daily operations in the laboratory, I still am able to keep involved in the laboratory from a QA perspective, and in that way, I'll be able to learn about all of the different testing techniques performed on site. In case it isn't perfectly clear, I am *very* excited about this move.
On the motherhood front, I sent my baby to jr. high this week, and I'm proud to admit that not one tear was shead... the lump in my throat was there, but no tears :) I'm super proud of that little girl, who's growing up so fast. I'm excited about the new school, I can see her being challenged already, and since she's taking pre-algebra, I know I'm going to get to brush up on my tutoring skills.
I am proud to say that I am quite contently single at the moment. I came to a realization a few weeks ago that gave me real perspective on the issue of relationships. Basically, I realized that I am quite satisfied not having a man in my life. There are of course disadvantages to not having someone to call when you could use a little help *like the flat tire I woke up to on Wed* - but even taking care of that little issue on my own was amazingly liberating. And since there is no one around to assume that I need to be taken care of, I don't find myself in situations where I want to be taken care of.
Having taken time to think about being single, and learn who I really am, I've also realized that I don't *need* a man in my life. I have, however, contemplated on the fact that it would be nice to have someone to talk to on a regular basis, just about stuff. Someone who would occasionally hug the heck outta me and tell me that i'm pretty awsome. Someone I can connect with on a level that few people take the time to get to. So I wait, not in search, but open to the idea that one day I might meet someone who does that for me.*
So, that's where I'm at right now... I'm in a mode of forward thinking. Not much thought of the past, except to think about how far i've come in the last 18 months.
*I have to note here, I smiled as I wrote that last line. I smiled not only with hope, but with the realization that it could happen tomorrow, or five years from now, and I would be content either way.
posted by Rebecca at 11:16 PM
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